I’ve struggled for a while now, whenever we pray to ‘seek God’s face’ as we seek his will. Or when we talk about when we will see God face to face. I struggle to understand what that means. What does that look like. How do I pray and seek God’s face, or how do I look forward to a day when I will see Him face to face. Quite honestly, I am overwhelmed by the thought of His majesty, His glory, my smallness.

In my classroom, I have one little 3 yr old who is developmentally delayed in every area, especially in his speech. Everyday, without fail, during activity time, this little guy, will seek me out. Often, there’s a buzz of children around me wanting my attention, and this little guy when he comes to me, rather than talking at me like the rest of the children, he will look at me intently, and wait till I notice that he’s there. He will wait on me to catch his eye. And when I do, His eyes and cheeks widen with the biggest smile. That’s all he seeks, is for me to see him – and in the moment that I do – this little guy is overwhelmed by my love for him. … and I am overwhelmed by his love for me. This happens everyday. Truth be told, I think I love that little guy more than the rest of them.

That’s when I remembered that the bible says, God is love. I wonder, if, just as my heart brims over for little guy when he seeks me, God’s heart does the same when I seek Him. He who created relationship, He who Himself is relationship, in the trinity of Father, Son and Spirit. He calls us to be in relationship with Him. And when I remember that I am seeking a relationship with Him, God, Love, Himself, I start to grasp at what it means to seek His face, to know the joy of His love.

For when we seek His face, we are seeking, Love, Himself. And that is not scary, or too far.
By the grace of His salvation, we find ourselves in a relationship with love Himself, with Jesus. The one who first loved us. And when that day comes when we will see Him face to face, I think our hearts will brim with such love and joy, we won’t be able to contain it.

Prayer

Just like little guy seeks my face, I pray Lord that I would seek Your face. With expectation, with love, with joy. To know that You love me – may that fill my heart to the brim day after day after day. And may I seek You day after day, to love You, and rest in the assurance of Your love.